Crazymaking: Does He Love Me?

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​​I felt I was playing the children’s game of plucking daisy petals, asking, “Does he love me? Does he not?” Life with my husband w​as so confusing.

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It wasn’t until I went to my fifth or sixth counselor that I learned my husband was a “crazymaker” and what that meant. In my just-published memoir, God, the Devil, and Divorce: A Transformative Journey Through Emotional and Spiritual Abuse, I include a scene with that counselor.
     “Confusion and shame is exactly what crazymakers want their victims to feel. All these things you’ve told me about Jim—saying one thing and then later, the opposite without acknowledging the difference, his lack of empathy for your physical and emotional state, trying to make you seem the bad one in the relationship, encouraging you to doubt your feelings—they convince me he’s a crazymaker,” she told me.
     My counselor warned me that crazymakers are not likely to change. I didn't have the tools to try to effect that change, and, after twenty-five years, I finally left. It wasn’t until I began writing my memoir that I understood the extent of my husband’s crazymaking. 

Here are eight of several types of crazymaking behavior
Crazymakers will--

1.  try to convince their partners that they are defective in some way, making their partner more emotional, more needy or dependent. 
2. commit to doing something when they really don’t want to do it and then finding a way out at the last minute.
3.  force their partner to make an important decision, then blame their partner for any perceived negative outcomes as a result of that decision.
4.  “over-tease” their partners. If their partners object, they accuse the partner of being “too sensitive.”
5.  provoke their partner to anger, then accuse the partner of being an angry, difficult person.
6.  change their minds, but deny they have done so.
7. pretend to be supportive, but then sabotage their partner.
8.  demonstrate little concern for the partner’s physical or emotional well-being. 

     These are but a few of the techniques crazymakers use to gain control over their close relations. Please note that my references here are all about men, but women can be crazymakers, too. If you suspect you are dealing with a crazymaker, I suggest you get counseling with a professional who understands this personality type.
     As for my question, did my husband love me? You'll have to read the memoir.
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Blessings,

Resources: Psychology Today’s article, “How to Handle a Crazymaker,” explains crazymaking and offers suggestions for dealing with this personality type.  David Hawkins’ book, Dealing with the Crazymakers in Your Life, is also helpful.

Author

Linda M. Kurth is a writer and a divorced and remarried Christian. In going through the divorce, she experienced a dichotomy of responses from the Christian community. After sharing some of those experiences in her new memoir, God, the Devil, and Divorce, she's heard many stories of divorced Christians who have struggled with the same issues. This blog invites divorced Christians to tell their stories with the goal of encouraging churches to resist condemnation and become a source of healing and grace.