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Why You Should Forgive Your Ex and How to Do It

4/2/2020

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The Benefits of Forgiveness
Maya Angelou called forgiveness “one of the greatest gifts you can give yourself.” Unrelenting unforgiveness traps us in the past. Forgiveness breaks the cycle of pain and victimhood we’ve been carrying, and frees us emotionally from the person who’s hurt us. Rooting out unforgiveness leaves room for joy in new experiences. My friend, Debbie Hucke notes, “[Forgiveness] releases the flow of God’s grace and His healing power. 
​​The Struggle to Forgive
I knew that, as a Christian, I was supposed to forgive my ex. But I struggled, revisiting  his many lies and the hurts he inflicted upon me. His betrayal haunted my nightmares and sprung up unbidden during the day. I could barely function.  “Go ahead, Lord,” I urged, “roast him and toast him!”
 “Betrayed” had become the narrative of my life.
I made an appointment with my new pastor, hoping he had the magic words that would help me with this task. “Forgiveness is absolutely necessary, and you should do it as soon as possible,” he responded. “Remember, God has forgiven both you and Jim.” He pointed to some of the passages in the Bible that deal with forgiveness.

“For if you forgive others their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.” Matthew 6:14

“Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.” Ephesians 4:31-32
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There were more verses, and I knew them all. He might as well have said, “Just do it.” Did that help me? Of course not! I felt more shame and frustration for not being ready to forgive
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What Forgiveness Looks Like
Forgiveness is a Process, not a onetime event
I hope by now that pastor has a better understanding of the forgiveness process. Forgiving doesn’t mean we immediately stop feeling hurt or we deny our feelings. I love what Nancy Richards, author of the memoir Mother, I Don’t Forgive You said in a recent interview with Kathy Pooler: “Forgiveness is not an event of immediacy. It’s not a bolt of lightning that brightens the soul and burns the pain to ashes. Forgiveness is a process;  one that we must honor with our own healing timetable.” (1)

By acknowledging our pain, not just with our heads but with our whole being, we open the door for healing and forgiveness.
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How to forgive
Ask God
God wants us to forgive, but He doesn’t expect us to forgive on our own. He’s a patient God, waiting to help us on our journey of forgiveness when we’re ready to ask Him.
 
Forgive yourself
In his book Forgive and Forget: Healing the Hurts We Don’t Deserve, Lewis B. Smedes wrote: “[Forgiveness] cannot heal our narcissistic resentments toward people for not being all that we expect them to be … Nobody can forgive people for being what they are.” (3)

I had to shed the illusion that I could have somehow changed my ex into the person I thought he should be. Eventually I realized my resentment toward him was a waste of my good time. If I had anyone to forgive, it was me for being wrong in my belief I could fix him. I also needed to forgive myself for staying so long and letting him get away with his treatment of me.
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Forgiveness doesn’t mean we shouldn’t protect ourselves
We can forgive someone even when we don’t trust them. An ex-spouse who has hurt us and remains unrepentant cannot be expected to change because of our forgiveness. I was relieved when I decided to hand over my ex and his problems to God. My job was to take care of me and my stuff. I practiced dealing with my ex as I would a business arrangement, spending as little emotional energy as possible. When the situation called for it, I sought to remind him, in a neutral manner, of his better nature. (I confess it took me a while to get to this point.)
 
Try empathy
You probably know your ex better than anyone else. Try to imagine what drove him or her to the behaviors that hurt you so much. Would a healthy person do the same? Probably not.

When I think of the parental abuse my ex endured during his childhood, my heart aches for him. That’s not to say I condone his actions, but it helps me see him as a vulnerable human being who didn’t have the capability of being the kind of spouse I needed or wanted. This realization has helped me forgive him.
 
Get help
I believe true forgiveness cannot be achieved in the midst of trauma. If you find yourself endlessly recycling hurt and anger as I did, get help. Many churches sponsor divorce recovery support groups led by people who understand what you’re going through. They’ll facilitate your learning how to heal and gain hope for your future. Individual counselors can be helpful, too. I took advantage of both. My counselor put me on anti-depressants until I was able to better cope. Through my divorce recovery group, I gained new friends as we negotiated our newly single lives. Healing and moving forward opened me to gradual forgiveness.
 
Use a little humor
Make a list of all your ex’s faults and put them together in a faux dating ad. Would you want to date that guy (or gal), let alone, be married to someone like that? No way!
 
Understand your power to forgive
In a Psychology Today article, Lisa Firestone writes, “Learning to forgive helps us to control our story and our feelings to avoid unnecessary pain. As powerful individuals, we can choose between living in a victim mode or an adult mode. In the latter state, we acknowledge and feel the full pain of what happened to us without getting stuck in a triggered state in which we feel it is still happening. We can feel our feelings without letting them overtake us.” (4)

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Have I been able to forgive my ex, you ask. When some folks learn I’ve written a memoir about my marriage, divorce, and recovery, they assume I’ve done so to “get back” at him. Although there might have been some truth to that when I first began, revisiting my life has given me a more nuanced perspective. I see the whole man now, with both good and bad qualities. He’s someone I spent a great deal of my life with, and with whom I share a now-grown child. I have enough emotional distance now that he can no longer hurt me. I wish him the best.
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Imagine you have the power to forgive. Can you feel your shoulders relax and your jaw unclench? Is your walk a little lighter? Just remember, forgiveness takes time. Be gentle with yourself as you follow the path of forgiveness, looking ahead to the many blessings that await you.

Blessings,
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Linda M. Kurth is a writer and a divorced and remarried Christian. In going through the divorce, she experienced a dichotomy of responses from the Christian community. After sharing some of those experiences in her upcoming memoir, God, the Devil, and Divorce, she's heard many stories of divorced Christians who have struggled with the same issues. This blog invites divorced Christians to tell their stories with the goal of encouraging churches to resist condemnation and become a source of healing and grace.

8 Comments
Betsy Diedrick link
10/17/2018 12:14:50 pm

Dear Linda,
I read your thoughtful post. Forgiveness is a tough one, so glad you touched upon it. The old axiom about the one we are really letting off the hook when we forgive is ourselves, is so true. May I suggest a new book out called, "A Tribe Called Bliss," available at the library. It may help many of your readers find their way back to contentment. God Bless, Betsy

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Linda
10/17/2018 12:32:49 pm

Thank you for the kind thoughts and valuable referral, Betsy. I'll check it out. I think I'll also compile a list of books that visit this subject.

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Szilvs
11/8/2020 02:06:58 pm

Great blog Linda. Thank you so much for sharing your insight into forgiveness and how you personally managed to forgive through the anger and perhaps hatred you have had in your heart. I just currently divorced and it has been a life changing, earth shattering experience for myself. I am having an extremely difficult time adjusting to a life of singleness. I am practicing forgiveness through the eyes of an outsider, so I can better understand my husband's childhood wounds. Your article was a refresher to me, as I feel the same as you have felt throughout your divorce and after.

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Linda Moore Kurth
2/25/2021 11:33:33 am

Svilvs, I apologize for not thanking you for your comment until now. I simply did not see it. I hope your journey of healing is continuing. I also hope you aren't beating yourself up if you are still struggling to forgive. I'm guessing that overall, you are making progress with that. I'm praying you will continue to keep up the good work of healing. Bless you.

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Eric l. Sledge
2/24/2021 06:53:33 pm

I Simply Can't do it I Don't have it in me to forgive my ex-wife just everlasting contempt

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Linda Moore Kurth
2/25/2021 11:24:15 am

Eric, I appreciate your comment, and I'm so sorry for what's happened to you and the pain you are experiencing. I've been where you are...feeling as if I let go of my anger I would have nothing. I know people who have never been able to let go; their exes still have power over them. I don't want that for you. I'm praying right now that the Lord helps you begin to let go of that anger until you are free. God bless you.

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Rhonda
6/3/2021 06:10:06 am

I desperately need help

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Linda
6/3/2021 09:08:26 am

Rhonda, I'm sorry that I'm not in a position to help you with whatever problem you are experiencing. Please contact your faith leader, the police, 911, or other appropriate resource.

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